Once More We Saw Stars - Jayson Greene
"At noon, doctors arrive to administer brain death testing. I watch them crowd around her, bustling. They disconnect the ventilator, monitoring Greta's chest for independent movement. Stacy and I watch her rib cage with a terrible silent focus. She lies still, stiller than I have ever seen her. As the endless minute stretches, I become aware of burning in my chest; I am holding my own breath. Finally, they plug her back in. Her chest swells, I exhale. I do not care what is making her lungs move anymore, I simply need to see them moving."
It is every parents worst nightmare - something that we wish happened only in the pages of the fiction novels that we read. Once More We Saw Stars is Jayson's true story of how he and his wife coped with their grief in the aftermath of laying their two year old daughter to rest after a horrible, freak accident. It was a raw, heart crushing read and yet, over time, they were able to find hope among their brokenness. Their deep love for one another sustains them as they navigate the unthinkable and the memories of precious Greta that are found throughout made this story very hard to put down.
You experience everything right along with Jayson and Stacy... the suffering, the anger, the complete and total sadness and confusion they feel as they try to figure out how to live as a family of two instead of a family of three. But you also witness great love... from the fragile tenderness when they are picking up the pieces of each other after their loss to the cautious joy when, a year and a half later, they are blessed with another child. Oprah Magazine’s June issue has a gorgeous feature of this memoir, and this stunning angel illustration of Greta moved me so much that I had to include it in today's picture. Many thanks to Knopf Publishing for providing a copy in exchange for my honest review.